Do it for your own reasons


I am sitting in the room and checking the pictures of an island on internet. I will be there in a little bit more than two weeks. I have a job, place to live and one way flight ticket. I decided to move for a while and to deal with the stuff I feel I need to.  I have no idea what is waiting for me or what I will do after, but I am excited to know.

The mind to travel, to change, to understand, to learn something I have no idea what was deep inside me for a long time. I don’t know what I am looking for, but I know for sure I will never understand without trying.  And it took me too long to decide. Stuck in office and daily routine made me feel that I am not living this live. That I just exist for survival. And the most painful part was that people who love me don’t push me to change anything.  Or maybe I was just too scared to hear that. However, I have reached the limit.

I think not everybody even from my close environment understands me. But I listened to others too long. Everybody wants what the best for them. So do I.

At work they tell you who you have to be and how you have to behave to make your heads happy. You are trying to be a part of it, but in the end you understand that you are just a measure to implement someone’s dream. At least I felt that since I was not in my sleigh. I don’t know if I will be, if I ever find what I am looking for, but it’s worth to try.

Anything we do we have to do it for our own reasons. We are so selfish. Too selfish. Even the closest family members are selfish. They stop us not because they don’t want what is the best for us. They want us close to them.

My good friend’s brother moved to Australia permanently. I asked his mom is she is ok with that. I will always remember her words:

“Better to know he is happy somewhere than to have him here and see him suffering”.

We can only learn from our own mistakes. Never stop. Always support.


Surrounded too many negativity

I am not sure if this feeling is common in other countries, but we Lithuanians have this thing I really can‘t stand. We see everything with too dark colors. There are so many stories I could tell, but today I want to share my thoughts and experience connected with traveling. Actually I am not this hating person, usually I just laugh from it.

Im standing in the airport and waiting for my check in. Next to me – two grown up Lithuanian women, 35-38 years old. One is telling to another (it‘s about holidays):

Everything was so bad… But still.. I don’t want to come back home“.

Wtf they are talking about? I was about to start to laugh. How is that even possible – where and how you live if your holiday was so terrible but still you don‘t want to go back? I can‘t really understand what is wrong with these people.

On my study years i was working in a hotel in Crete and sometimes clients were talking that food is not good enough, beds are not comfortable enough ect. One guy, guest, with whom we become friends told me:

„All I care is a place to sleep“.

People should care more about their activity, what they can take from this holiday, whom they can meet, places they can see. And all they care is food? If you care so much about this stuff – choose 5 stars hotel, not the one where you pay 300 euros for flight tickets and a week with all inclusive. And at the end – I am really curious what these people are eating at home. Two summers I spent in Sergios hotel located in the center of Hersonissos. I swear everything is much more than great there!

Nowadays I am trying to travel as much as I can afford to myself. Not always I am able to stay in the hotel, but it was never a problem. You are getting more fun experiencing different ways.

Few weeks ago me and my friend were walking in the center of Helsinki where we had only few hours and we felt so lucky. We were having this conversation that it was zero times when we said anything bad about our trips, places where we slept, food we ate or activities we did.

I don‘t know an answer, if I am really lucky with choosing, or if I am just this person with positive minds. If so this I can consider as bigger luck.

I also don‘t know if money spoils, I am not rich. I just wish to see less sulky and disgruntled people around.