You are you no matter what. This was in my head when I sit in the airplane and was waiting for my flight. In what place I am now I was thinking. I am 26 years old. I quit my job which I was doing for two years, I left my hobby “job” which I was doing for six years. Office job is not for me at the moment for sure, but basketball was a big part of my life. Unfortunately this hobby messed up with much negativity and it affected me a lot.
I left my friends, my lovely amazing crazy friends which I love so much, my mom who is my only family and everything I created in these years after studies. Where I am going? Cyprus. Why? I don’t know. I believe everything happens for a reason and I am here because I have to be here.
The last day or maybe couple of last days before leaving was difficult. It breaks my heart to see my mom crying. She didn’t ask me to stay but I know it was the biggest her wish. On the last moment I felt like maybe I don’t have to go, just to wake up and come back to my real life. But what is real life? The life when you feel nothing more than existing? Comfort zone is an addiction, and no matter how strong I can look, as weak I am. Many stuff I have to deal with, but I have all my life to do this. We all do.
It’s around one month I am living in Cyprus now. Still can’t say if this is real life, o just holiday. Excited, curious, interested. Meeting new people, seeing new places, working in the hotel and speaking with customers all around the world, sharing thoughts, enjoying sun, good weather and everything else. It feels good. It feels so good. On my first week I told to myself and my closest people – I didn’t feel so happy for a long time.
Few days ago I just catch myself smiling without any reason. I am not the fan of perfection but by walking alone to the beach I realized that there is no reason to have too much stuff in your head. All my life I thought overthinking is just a part of me, but by talking to open minded people every day I realized that it’s not true at all. As one wise guy told me overthinking brings nothing more than negativity. When you are trying to understand something always you imagine the worst. So from now anytime I find myself thinking about something too much I just stop. It’s enough stress everywhere, why to put more from yourself? There are many things we will never be able to change or understand 100 percent. Wait for this what life is giving, be excited, be nice to people, be human being and accept things as they are. Never be afraid to fail and don’t stop yourself.
I am not perfect.
You are not perfect.
Life is not perfect.
Stop thinking, accept it and enjoy!