Everything in this world is in the power of time. We plan so many things, we think we will do so many stuff, we will stick for something, improve, grow, will be somebody.
Even small things. We like to plan our life, tell our minds to others. Share that next month we will go on holiday, next year we will be promoted at work, will receive higher salary, in five years we will get marry, will have house, children etc. I was so jealous for people who know what they will do, they know what they want. I was always wondering how, why… why I don’t have all these feelings, why I am so lost. I don’t know who I am, I don’t know what I will do or even what I am doing and I have no fucking idea what I want. Nowadays I even lost inspiration to write. Just enjoying peaceful life and trying to understand psychology of the local people.
I can’t stand fake people and so many of them I found here. Being nice for a reason to get something, to use. It is not common for me to see people over 30 years talking how they enjoy the freedom and how they don’t want nothing serious, just fun and definitely definitely nothing more.
Yesterday I was having this conversation how people close minded can be. How do you know what will happen? How can you put limits on something you don’t realize? Putting boundaries, blocking yourself, playing with your brain and repelling others. We all are scared to be hurt and to lose people we care. From wish to have and control we say and do mean things. And this is life. We are learning every single day and every single moment. Just we have to make sure these means words are not the last we said…
Some words stalled in my mind from yesterday’s conversation. It was an old wise man counsel. Not for me, for the person I was sharing my thoughts;
Don’t talk too much. Always listen what others are saying. How can you learn something if you are talking all the time? Listening is the only way you can learn something new.
I agree. 100 percent. But in the end today I feel inspired. I spoke a lot and by talking, by having these kind of conversations I understand more about myself. How I was, how I am, what I learned, how I changed and what I want.
Life is full of opportunities. You never know what will happen, whom you will meet, how it will change your life or your plans which you created so long. Making plans takes so much energy. You are giving all of you to believe in the bright future, you wait and you get upset if you don’t get what was expected. We need to stop doing this and enjoy the moment. It will never be the same again.